Temporairly Insane

There are always the highs and the lows of being rejected. First off, you never have to deal with the boy who probably wants to go farther into the relationship or go out on dates. You will never have to deal with the fights that break out over talking to other boys or girls. He will never get jealous of your best friend because there is no “he”. You can forever be in peace with the thought that maybe you can make it work…being a free person and all. Then there are the fingers pulling at your strings. He’s so sweet and caring. He helps you with your homework and lets you shoot him in Call of Duty 4. At the time he may seem like your everything. You would let him borrow anything…even Fable 2. And when he announces that he’s leaving, you cry because you can’t imagine not talking to him every night before your mom comes in and says, “Get off the phone, it’s time for bed.” And even though he likes that other girl that lives so far away, you can’t help but hope that she’ll hurt him so that you can put him back together when he falls apart. You listen to his chatter about her perfect eyes and her pretty smile, but deep inside all you can think is, “I hope that bitch burns in Hell.”  And when he’s home and he mutters to himself while typing you a message you know he’s thinking about her…maybe even talking to her at the same time. So really there is no point to list about highs and lows, because even though you think your happy you he doesn’t think about you before he goes to bed and when he wakes up again.

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