The blog of Emmaness

When I first saw you,

I knew that I loved you.

When I first spoke to you,

And I heard your voice,

I knew that I had no other choice.

I had to know you-

I had to know you name-

I had to become you friend,

So I could try out your game

So here I am

Sitting and waiting

Here for the taking,

But still contemplating.

How can I get closer?

How can I stay?

When I know all that I’ll do

Is sit here and wait.

This is a poem from a book I read, and I think that everyone should know this poem, becasue so many can relate to it.

Some people

never find the right kind of love

you know, the kind that steals

your breath away, like diving into snow melt.

The kind that jolts your heart,

sets it beating apace, an anxious

hiccuping of hummingbird wings.

The kind that makes evey terrible

minut apart feel like hours. Days.

Some peopls Flit from one posiblity

to the next, never experiencing the incredible

connection of two people, rocked by destiny.

Never knowing what it means to love

somone else more than themselves.

More than life itself, or the promise

of somthing better, beyond this world.

More, even (forgive me!) than God.

Lucky me. I found the right kind

of love. With the wrong person.

-From Tricks By Ellen Hopkins

well, i havn’t written in this for a long time so i thought i should. there will be new peoms and stories in the next few weeks. i have come to realize that a lot of my old poems are all the same, just a little different. so to stop boring people, if anyone even reads this anymore, i decided to post my new stuff……yes, the good stuff… hehehe. thnk you my loyal readers..

Yeah, so for the first time since I started journalism I have writers block; the dreaded writers block. But in writing this I have writers block I am undoing what i said was done. Because now I can write. so HAH!!! I beat writers block…..uummmm what was I gonna write now? D$mmit Jim!

How can my hand be so steady?

I am more than not ready

For what I am about to do.

I hope I get it rite

And not turn out looking like a fool.

He looks at me with

Some strange look,

Something you would hear

Described in a book.

Not quite happy,

Not quite sad

But a look that he might be had.

I try to smile,

But start to cry.

How can I possibly lie?

I know I love him,

But that’s what I fear.

That when I whisper

I love you,

No reply will I hear.

So I have to say I don’t.

So he…..

will be able to cope.

He makes my heart stop…

When he walks by I feel

Like my lungs will pop.

So much happiness,

How can there be pain?

I know I can make it through

Another day.

Or please

just make this pain go away.

Won’t see him for a few more days

But still this pain will not refrain.

Do I let him know?

Or just try to go with the flow.

Do I let Love come to me?

Or do I let these moments pass freely?

Whatever I do

I know we will never be…

not really but today i am back in journalism because it is dback. so yeah. i miss this class so much, but i like mountain view so much that i would probably never go back to union mine to graduate. i would rather just graduate and then come back and walk with my class down the isle to get my diploma. so mountain view is one of the most awesome schools in the world. in the last few weeks i have already made about 13 credits.  so i am graduating even sooner than i thought i was. awesomeness.  yeah, so now i am done with my MV rant. have a great day, or whatever. lol

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He was my world

He was my life

Now he left me in the dust.

With nothing left

But for me to despise.

I don’t know where he went

I don’t know if I care

But I know how much I loved him

And now it makes

Me pull out my hair.

She was just as good

But never what she seemed

At first I thought she loved me

But now I just refrain.

In no way shape or form

Will I ever love again.

All it causes is pain,

And frustration.

Now is the perfect time

For liberation.

Maybe one day I will feel the need

To be held

And not just seen.

Maybe he will love me for all I am

Hopefully he won’t be only a boy;

I need a man.

Or at least someone

With there head strait

Then I will feel the love

And not just the hate.

 picture by monkee25

Rest in Peace, Heath.

 He was a very good actor, and my all time favorite actor in fact. My favorite movie he did was Ten Things I Hate About You. On the day I found out he died, I actually cried. There was always that one hope that in the future when I go to a movie premere I would have met him, but then that dream was ripped away.   

So again Rest in Peace, Heath.

picture by Trinity_Awen

this is one of my all time favorite movies!!! But mostly because Kiefer was hot back then. There is a second one either out or coming out soon. But yeah, if you’re into vampires, and people hunting them down, then this is the movie for you to see. Both the first and the second in fact. So please give vampires a chance, even if you don’t like them. They’re people too!!! Jk. thanx